Meditation

I just read something rather interesting while trying to search the web to discover how in the world to meditate.  It said to make friends with your mind.  Don't be mean to your mind, but find out what your mind likes to do.  The answer, is that the mind likes to think.  It likes to process and be challenged.  You may be saying that this is so obvious and that I'm obviously pretty aloof not to have gathered this on my own.  But, wow!  So true, my mind goes a million miles a minute, and if it is not occupied for a second it goes off the deep end, enter binge eating everything in the house or enter negative thoughts or feelings.  This is probably why I have taken up distance running.  It takes up a good chunk of time and keeps me busy.  It also helps my mind to relax and zone out.  It's an escape... for an hour, and free child care at the gym.  Gotta love it.

So, when I notice my mind getting revved up due to a lack of stimulation, I need to force myself to meditate.  I need to avoid thinking of it as a chore and not something that I would like to do, but think of it as stimulating and enriching.

My challenge for the month of November is to meditate daily.  Meditate in the form of prayer, blogging,

I am going to love my mind, and love it's naturally over active state.  I am going to start looking at this as a blessing rather than a challenge.

Wish me luck.

Rambling

Having a 10 month old is crazy.  I think she purposefully contradicts everything I read.  I do know one thing, however, she has slept through the night for the past 2 days.  This is the first time in 10 months that she has started doing so.  She did it 2 weeks ago as well, but this was short lived, and we had another week long regression.  Naps during the day are hit or miss.  Somedays, she refuses to nap and will go full force all day, and others, she will nap.  And, it will be glorious.

This morning, she is napping, and I get to drink hot cocoa and type.  I am in heaven.  One thing that I would really like to start doing daily, is focusing on my spirituality.  In particular, I want to know God.  I want to stop the procrastination of knowing God, and just coexist with Him.  As I type this, I realize that I am the one standing in my own way, which sounds so cliche.  I think I've heard this line spouted off in church about 10k xs.  So God, please speak to me as I sit and relax.  Please revive my soul and give me rest.  Help me to know You.  Tell me about You.  I guess the answer to what are God's hopes and dreams is that we know Him and make Him known.  All glory and honor to Him we give.

Lord, help me to focus on today.  On now.  Calm my anxious spirit.  Holy Spirit, help me to chill out. Thank you for allowing me to be your child.  Help me to feel security as I wrestle with fears of death and dying.  Help me to prepare for life after death.  Help me to be thankful, and to give, and to forgive.

Thank you for saving me.  Thank you for helping me.  Please heal me and restore me.  I am so broken and have too many deficiencies to count.  Please help me to not focus on fixing, but rely on You to fix.

Thank you.